Jounetsu/Passion

I have something that I need to admit to–to get off my chest, I suppose. I’m terrible for stalking my boyfriend’s exes on the Internet.

Honestly, I know it’s a problem. I do. But it seems I only tend to do it if I’ve never met the girl before, for what that’s worth (haha, nothing).

I find I’m focusing on Reed’s exes in particular. Maybe because I like him more than the others? I don’t really know, but I wouldn’t be surprised. That, and he “talks” about his girlfriends without really talking about them, I suppose. He’ll bring up memories and stuff, but the only in-depth conversations I’ve managed to squeeze out of him with respect to his former girlfriends are his dealings with the mental illness of one of them (if you’re thinking he speaks negatively about her because of this, don’t–he knew from the get-go that all the issues were the illness and NOT her).

But anyway, I’m digressing. Reed’s tight-lippedness concerning his girlfriends, and his sister’s seemingly biased negativity toward them prompted me to look both of them up myself. I check in on each of them (on Myspace or Facebook pages, or whatever) to see what they’re up to, and to help me get an idea of their general personalities (I read their notes and memes like crazy).

See, though? I’m ridiculous. I realize the fact of the matter is that I should simply be happy that I’m dating Reed and leave it at that. And yet, I have this insatiable NEED to know his past. I’ve even looked up former friends of his to see what they’re like. I mean, he’s been through so much that I haven’t, and experienced life so differently from my own experience… I just… I feel that through knowing these people he doesn’t really communicate with anymore, I can know him.

I’m silly. Look at me now defending my actions. Or maybe I’m trying to understand my actions? I’m not sure.

Anyway, I’m going to leave it at that. To all girls out there–make sure the man you’re dating doesn’t date me. Or I’ll internet-stalk you.

No, I don’t have any photographs just yet for the past… seven days or so. Why, you ask? Because I want to wait until I get all of the photographs uploaded, and since most of them are on my camera-phone (yeah, I suck), I have to wait until I can find the USB card reader thing that will let me get those pictures onto my computer without having to pay any money. So, everybody has to wait. I’ve got some really interesting snapshots, though. Ones people will like. Ones that I like, anyway.

As for the layout, you’ll notice I’ve changed it. Given that we’re now firmly into winter (and even coming to the end of it, though we’ll probably still have a month or three of snow up here in Canada), I figured that still having a fall layout was a bit behind the times. So I’ve changed it to a more patriotic one… one that also makes me think of camping in the summer, which is something that pleases me greatly.

Do you see the Canadian currency? Yeah, it’s great, isn’t it? And the maple leaf on the bottom. It’s also a very clean layout, but it’s clean without being too boring. The only issue I had with it at first was that the text was too small for me to see on my boyfriend’s computer without wearing my glasses. And because I’m lazy and I don’t like feeling obliged to wear my spectacles, I fiddled around with the stylesheet and now the font size starts one size bigger. Oh, and I made the line-height difference more obvious, because I like having a bit of a double-spaced feeling to my writing (I find it reads better when the words aren’t crowded vertically–don’t you?).

But yes… because there are no pictures, I figured I at least needed to update everybody on something at least. Since I’ve finally decided to write blog posts more often now, I figured it would be on what I did today (which wasn’t very interesting and was mostly involved with this website, alas).

Ooh… I’ve also update the Archives page (check it out… I’m proud of myself). It now lists months, and when you click on a month, it’ll drop down into post titles, organized by dates. I find it a lot more organized than the stupid Archives page that WordPress offers, which basically just lets you navigate every single post in a month. Stupid.

Other than that, I haven’t done much today. I cleaned my apartment up a bit, so it’ll smell really nice when I get back, but I still need to vacuum the sheets (to rid them of Brucie-fur) to feel like it’s fully clean. Oh, and I’m planning on reorganizing it slightly and then also doing my laundry. That’ll probably all get done within the next couple of days, sandwiched between snuggling with Bruce, snuggling with Reed, and reading the next Star Wars book in the Yuuzhan-Vong related installments that I’ve been devouring lately.

Life’s pretty good.

It occurred to me as I was wading the vast ocean of the Internet (searching for other interesting blogs to which I could link/blog owners with which I could become friends) that there are far too many blogs that aren’t updated nearly regularly enough. Or that there are plenty of blogs that haven’t been updated since 2007 that the owners keep up simply because they want a record of their lives from that period. Even though they NEVER update their websites.

Then there are those who have been on hiatus for a year, and don’t leave updates at all. It’s rather sad. I mean, I’ve left my blog alone before for a month or two (maybe), but I don’t think I’d be able to leave it unattended for a year or more. Never ever.

And yet there are so many people who do. Why is it that there are so many of us out there (geeky bloggers) who are so incapable of keeping to regular scheduled things, like blogging?

I know that for some people, it’s because they decide that real life is far more important than their virtual lives, and so they leave web-life by the wayside when real life gets in the way. For others (me included), they just don’t realize they’ve left their online presence alone for so long, because they got really involved in a creative project of some sort, like writing a book or painting a really awesome picture or designing a completely separate website, or creating a comic book.

Really though, it takes a lot of time and dedication to keep up a website, even with the ease that blogging platforms (such as WordPress) provide us on the coding side.

It’s interesting to me though that there are so many dead sites now, so many websites that have been completely abandoned, and are still around, standing as a warning of sorts to other webmasters of what could happen to their very own websites.

I sure hope it’s not what happens to mine. Which is also one of the reasons why I decided to partake in a Project 365 of sorts–as a way to oblige myself to post every day (even though it really doesn’t seem like work–really).

No… no dead website for me.