Jounetsu/Passion

I’m sorry I’ve been neglecting everything on this website for the past month or so. I really am. But with 34+ hours a week of work and a photography course on one of my off days, I’m rarely doing anything worthy of posting about. Which means my life’s getting pretty depressing lately. Nothing’s happened. Nothing.

After reaching my second goal weight, I haven’t lost (or gained) anything. I’m going nowhere in that sense, but I’m hoping to renew my weight loss efforts and hopefully lose some more. I’m going to try starting now, but I’m expecting my 43 hours that I have to work next week to get in the way of any real progress for the simple reason that I’ll only have two days off and they won’t be a weekend at all. Oh well. I’ll try anyway.

Photography-wise I’m making a fair amount of progress, actually. I haven’t been learning very much from the course that I don’t already know, but it’s nice to have assignments that challenge me at least a little bit. I’m enjoying the assignments, at least. One thing I’m not enjoying as much, though, is the fact that the teacher seems to be ignoring me. I think it’s because she knows I already know most of what she’s teaching us, but even when we’re showcasing our photographs, she just looks at mine, says, “That’s the assignment,” and moves on. For others, she points out things she likes and doesn’t like, but for mine this week she just skipped over them. It sucked. We’ll see what she does this week though. However, I kind of have the feeling that other than pointing out that I did light painting and explaining to my classmates (once again) how to do it, she’ll probably skip right over me again. Shitty.

School-wise, I’m going to be paying my tuition the Monday after next. . I hate spending large amounts of money all at once when it’s something that I don’t get to keep for myself. Ugh.

Hopefully I’ll post again soon with some updates. Maybe not. I don’t know–I don’t foresee anything interesting happening in my life in the next three or four weeks aside from me overworking and being undervalued (and underpaid), anyway.

So, I made an appointment for my tattoo–it’s going to be on Wednesday, April 28th (yes, the same day I start my photography course). I’m really excited, but nervous, about it. For one, I’m excited because getting a tattoo is something I’ve wanted to do since I was sixteen–and after having had six years to sit and wait and ponder the decision, I still want one–so clearly I do actually want one and it’s not just some teenage rebellion thing.

I’m extremely nervous, however, because someone’s going to be stabbing ink into my skin over and over and over again. That’s terrifying. Not necessarily because of the pain but because I’m a really big baby and build things up in my head. The day before I get this done, I’m going to be telling myself that everything that could possibly go wrong will and that I’ll have a terrible experience. I’ve done the same thing with the multiple piercings I’ve had–even though every single one of them has been fine. I’m ridiculous, but I’m still nervous.

But there’s not much I can do about the nerves, I suppose.

In any case, here’s what I’m getting tattooed onto myself (on my right shoulder):

Exciting, isn’t it? That, my dear friends, is a camera aperture. I thought it apropos since the chances are I’m going to be deeply in love with photography for the rest of my natural life. Not to mention, I actually find the symbol for a camera aperture generally quite beautiful–especially in black and white (at the moment, I have a black tattoos-only rule for myself). Gorgeous, no? I’m excited about it.

So, by two weeks from now, I’ll have reached my second goal weight. Awesome, eh? Which means I’ll be getting my tattoo! Yay!!

I’m really sorry for not updating in about ten days, but I’ve been working like crazy lately. In all reality, it’s only been like a real full-time job (33 hours last week, 36 this week), but when you’re working until midnight all of the time, working five shifts is definitely draining. Hopefully I can organize my schedule with my bosses so that Reed and I get more days off together, too. That would be really, really nice. ^_^

Anyway, last week I signed up for a photography course being offered by Cambrian (my soon-to-be college!). It starts on the 28th (so, the same day that I get my tattoo), and I’m super excited for it. Because, while I know enough to get by and take nice photographs, I’d really love to learn more on the technical side of things, and a teacher will make that so much easier for me to do. So yes–photography course starting soon in my life.

That’s about it, unfortunately. I haven’t done very much at all lately due to the fact that I’ve been working so damn much. Anyway, talk to you all later! (I have to go to work in an hour and a half).